Hey Guys and Gals!
I apologize for my long absense. There has been alot going on in my life. Im not going to divulge deep into my drama. Just know that Im still fighting and Tada! Back to bring you more of my random thought provoking blog posts.
Tonight… Tonight I’m going to talk about Suicide. I might trace off into a spout of depression and mental illnesses. Oh and Possible self realization, live as you read. So please bare with me while I talk about somethings. Alrighty, here we go.
Have you ever noticed how quiet everyone is about the topic of mental illness and most commonly suicide? No one wants to see it until it is right in their eyes. When Death is staring them in the face or has taken a loved one. In my life I have experienced 2 suicides, one of them was a friend, and friends who attempted, and I have started to plan my own 3 times. Its a weird thought that I can acutally know how many times I’ve planned my own death.
The sad thing is, I can honestly say, not a single person in my entire life knew that I was so ready to die. And there are millions people out there that are just like me. Did you know that there was a suicide text hotline. I sure didnt until last night? SO! IF ANYONE IS IN NEED OF SOMEONE TO TALK TO THE NUMBER TO TEXT IS 741741. Just hang in there… More about that later.
So knowing that there are so many people out there who feel as I do. Broken, ashamed, tired, ect. ect. then how come this is something that is not talked about? Suicidal people are alot less likely to tell anyone about how they are feeling. No matter how close they are to Death’s doorstep. Most of them are simply afraid to say anything because they are ignored or when they do get someone to listen, people tend to over react. And sometimes they just need someone to talk to about the most useless things. Just to talk, have someone there, someone else’s voice instead of the ones in their heads. I am not a touchy feely person myself, so I’m not sure on the whole holding and cuddling thing and if it works. But its worth a shot yeah?
It pains me to know that its ignored. hen I was in highschool I tried to get a sucide preventon set up for my school, after a freshman had died. My councilors and Princlple told me that I couldnt. And all it was, was business cards with a yellow ribbon on it. They are from the Yellow Ribbon Project, its for sucide prevention (haha obviously) I read about it a book. So if anyone is interested there, google that shit. Its buisness card sized “help” card. How could the adults that we are supposed to trust, say no to something that could help someone, Because not a week later, a friend of mine killed herself. Nov. 11th. The other suicide was Nov. 7.
I want people to be come more aware of the signs that every single depressed person gives off. Seriously, Everyone has a sign. Yeah there are the usual general signs. But each person has their own. You just have to look hard enough,
I am always here to talk to. And believe it or not, sometimes it helps to talk to a stranger. Just shoot me a message.